Painting in Acrylics. Dance with the Father
Back from vacation!! Finished reading Song of Solomon and I am in awe of how much revelation I get every time I read it. I felt as if each time I read the book a new level of my destiny is revealed. Call it progressive destiny!! I have always liked the book but every time I read it I get newer and deeper understanding of who God is for me and what He wants from me. This time around, I felt He was asking me "will you still love me if things do not turn out the way you want them?" I have to be honest, I was not thrilled with the question but after pondering and asking Him for clarity, I came to understand that He created me for His purposes. He is asking me to choose Him and let Him delight in me in spite of all my imperfections. I have to be able to say like the Shulamite "His love is better than wine"!!! He spoke clearly to me about how sometimes the fear of some of the choices He is asking me to make is bigger that the love I have for Him. He is asking me to get to know Him at a deeper level so I can carry more of Him into the battle. I have to experience Him in the difficult places so I discover a new facet of His nature. There are part of my life where He is not King yet. I don't know Him well in those areas. I have to get to the point that He is the only thing that satisfies because I experienced Him in that specific area. There are areas where is easy for me to know God. For example, I have experienced Him as my provider so it is easy to let go and know He will always provide. It is harder when it comes to letting go of my boys. I want to be in control and the fear of the boys being harmed is sometimes bigger that the trust I have in God. I am learning to trust Him more and as I do this, I cast my burdens and carry His yoke. His yoke is easy and He then fights the battle from the place or my rest. This is the place of victory. The place where I know Jesus is King and He is my confidence. I need an upgraded version of my Lord so I can see how irresistible He is. Like the Shulamite, I want to get to the place where nothing can quench the love I have for Him. I want to experience the love described in John 17:26. I want the love the Father had for Jesus to be in me so I can reveal Him to others! It is part of my progressive destiny.
